stressful

i lost my blog tonight. i'm not sure how to explain it all, but it was very stressful. all that came up was this tan coloured screen. i freaked ou and slammed down the screen and stormed out. giving alexander a bit fo a fright i think. feeling stupid i came back and sobbed. which was good. i think it was a bit of a tention release and just nice. and alexander helped. so after sobbing i opened up the computer again and logged onto blogspot and found that everything was still around, i just deleted my template somehow, but its all fine and back now. phew.
otherwise today was pleasant and pleasant and pleasant.
started out with breakfast in the dining room overlooking the bay. had second breakfast in a different position, still with the bay in full view of me. we drove out to cape point and hung around with loads of tourist groups. saw ostrich but unfortunately no eland. also saw a tiny tortoise. cute.
had a very stressful shopping experience. went through three horrible stores and finally ended up at a woollies. i picked up quite a few items we did not need, including chocolate pudding (on the cashier's insistence) and a tub of ice cream. and dates!
tonight we're starting to work on X's Master's paper. i will be the subject of his ethnography. it has been in my head a lot recently and it opened up a whole lot of thought on my sexuality and my identityt. have been doing some reading on the topic and also looking at some ethnographies. i will comment more on that later. but i am excited. and feeling better.
my phone has been off since just after 4 yesterday and i'm loving that. will have to return to the world tomorrow though. and not feeling like it.