I am struggling to get what is in my head onto the screen today. Minutes ago what I wanted to say was pretty clear to me, but now it does not seem to want to come out right. It is a bit like 2006.
Around 10 months ago it seemed as if everything was going to fall into place, but rather the opposite happened. I’m sure many would agree.
More than once over the past 8 months I gave in to bouts of depression, wondering what went wrong. Everything that I had planned out so well and that started off so great just disappeared and I started losing a lot of focus.
And not just me, I looked at my friends and family and saw the same things happening to almost everybody around me.
What went wrong?
So 2006 did not work out as planned, but it definitely inspired many people to acts of bravery. Yes, I am being rather sentimental on this Wednesday morning, but I don’t care!
So, the little acts of bravery.
One friend fell madly in lust with an actor/singer and decided to stalk him in a very sexy and clever manner. She ended up going for drinks with this man.
Another developed a crush on a coffee shop/deli manager and pursued this in a rather quirky way. They are going on a date tonight.
Another friend decided to quit his job of the past 6 years to focus more on his studies and write full time.
My little cousin stood up to his step mom and decided he wanted to move in with my parents.
One couple decided to give up their safe life in Taiwan and move to Moscow. Many others are doing the same at the moment. Shipping cats and dogs from Taiwan back to SA or to Canada or the UK. Following new dreams.
Other friends had their first-born and have not given him up for adoption yet.
Quite a few people got married or are getting married this year.
One got into a prestigious glass school in Seattle for a summer course. She lost most of her luggage on the way, but she is their now.
And then of course there is the one that keeps on saying the wrong things or eating the wrong porridge and getting flack for it from just about everybody. Very brave indeed.
So now we are hurtling towards 2007 and I wonder what to expect of the next year?
As for myself, it seems likely that I will have to brave the hollow-and-empty-stomach feelings of a long distance relationship again. But with the knowledge that it would be followed by the rather brave act of traipsing down (or up) East Africa together with X.
But I’m not going to think about it too much, it might not come out right.
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You are so right about 2006. I had such high hopes for this year, back in 05 it promised to have the potential to make all my dreams come true but no, zilch. In fact I have never been so miserable as I was in the first half of 06. And your post has made me wonder - maybe it isn't this year's fault, maybe 2005 is to blame for some sort of cosmic intoxicant effect and now we're all in withdrawal? Anyway, I think I'm more or less de-toxed now and have made some sensible decisions (for a change) that seem to be working in my favour. I miss the old optimism rush though, wonder whether I'll relapse?
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