too early

I should be in bed sleaping, readying myself in a dream state to wake up at six and go to work. But instead I am sitting around rather aimlessly in front of the computer, trying to get rid of the knot in my stomach.
The uncertainty that is facing us about next year and where we will be or not be and everything related to it is making my stomach churn and messes with my head. I'm beginning to feel rather silly, but in a justified way. I wish I could just breathe in and out a couple of times and realize there is NOTHING I can do about it tonight and I should get some sleep. But instead I sit here and way myself down with more worry drinking weird tea.
I've decided to check out the possibility of teaching in the States. Doubtful if anything worthwhile will pop up, but maybe I should just give it a go and who knows what will happen.
I am wishing myself luck.